So long

Well look who is finally here.

Little biatch with stupid eyebrows.

Yes it is me, 20-year-old me.

I'm sorry I've left my blog hanging there for almost two years

And what makes me feel more sorry is that I only came back because I'm REALLY bored.

Ops

I'm having my semester break

OH, I had finished my diploma in teaching at IPGKTB.

Yes, my wish came true.

I'm a teacher-to-be.

Even though my personalities are way too different from what a teacher should have

but I love kids, so I guess that should work.

Well I met some new friends, Yes I actually made new friends.

I know that I'm not a socialized person but #yolo right

I've tried really hard to make myself look less anti-social ever since I stepped into my college life.

but my social skill sucks. Fuck it

Anyway, at least I have 3 coursemates a.k.a roommate and neighbours.

College life is fun and challenging.

Sometimes it makes me miss my old friends so much

because everything becomes so simple when I'm with them.


I've learnt so many things recently

Patience

Tolerance

Don't judge a book by its cover

Some people will never change

Be a bad person because good people always die first.

Sometimes I just wonder why everything has to be so complicated.

Me being all nice and friendly and cute but me got fucked up like shit

So I have had enough and I'm gonna flip the bitch mode switch

I just hope that I can be less soft hearted so that I won't get hurt easily

Catch no feelings, feel no pain right?


Anyway

At least I have the strongest mom

and a boyfriend who went through thick and thin with me.

At least I can be myself in front of them.

And at least I have my dogs and Bibi who loves me all the time.

Well, life isn't that bad.

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I Miss You.

Time flies like a speeding car isn't it?

Yesterday I just stepped into my new life.

New school, new friends, everything was new

but today, it has been almost a year.

I am having my holiday now.

Instead of saying holiday, I am actually on my study weeks now.

It's because my first semester examination is just around the corner.

As the exam is coming soon, the day we meet again is coming too!

You have to know, 

I have been missing you, more than I can ever tell you.

How much I wish to be right beside you now.

How much I wish to be holding your hand.

How much I wish to feel your warmth.

Everything I do, I think of you.

I wanna tell you how much I miss you,

I wish I could.

You know what,

Somehow, 

I still get butterflies in my stomach when I think of us meeting again.

Haha, it might sound a little bit stupid but it's true.

I can't wait for you to get back here bae.

I am missing you like crazy.

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More Than Okay

It has been awhile.

Still living my life as usual but a lil bit happier.

Form 6 life seems simple and easy but for a lazybone like me,

it's gonna be a hard journey.

I am trying to change and stop lazing around.

I just wish someone could nag me and fill up my mind with those motivating words.

However, it is not the same with last few years.

After all, I'm gonna be 18 years old soon in December.

Guess I can only push myself forwards and face the reality huh.

Anyway, life is better than the way it was. Much better.

Keep on fighting Naomi.


Besides, my man is in Johor now.

And here starts the a-little-long-distance relationship. Haha

It is not easy to keep the relationship rolling smooth and simple just depending on texts and calls.

There were quarrels, misunderstandings, anger and tears.

Still and all, we pulled through and we will always pull through. Won't we?

We are apart in different places, doing different things, meeting different people,

still, we have each other.

Not in the state of physically having each other by our sides

but having each other right here in our hearts and minds.

That's it, that is what we need.

Always appreciate the effort we put in to this relationship and in making both of us feel secure and happy.

Most importantly, never stop showing the love towards each other.

That is the only way to keep the relationship in blossom.


My days are getting brighter than ever.

Just keep living like this.

Because last time I was not okay but now,

I am feeling a little bit more than okay. =)

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Tuesday

Here comes another Tuesday.  :)

But it's different now, I found a job. Wee=D

Nothing special, I am gonna work as a waitress at Sunflower Bakery.

I'm so nervous because it's my first time and first day to work.

I hope that everything goes well.

Besides, I am a temporary piano teacher too, haha.

I just started teaching last Tuesday.

My first student is a 5-year-old cutie pie.

She is really in to playing piano and that helps a lot.

It went okay. :)

I think I can handle two more new students on this coming Thursday.

I hope I can, haha.

Honestly, stepping into a working life makes me feel so nervous yet excited.

I guess all I can do is to work hard and let God arrange my future. :))

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Freedom?

So I am done, with SPM!!!!

Yeah, same with everybody else, still can't believe that I actually finished my SPM exam.

God, I can't believe it?

I was just about to watch spongebob with ma little brother every sunday morning.

Now I have finished my spm and I'm graduated?

I still watch spongebob but everything is not the same.

Gee.

I don't even feel like I have done with the spm shit.

I don't know what and where should I work,

I don't even know whether I should get a job.

This year is so changing me.

Mom and I start packing stuff so that we can move out from the house as soon as possible.

Everything is like a mess.

Mom is so tired of her life I can see that from her eyes.

My heart breaks a little everytime I see her face.

So tired that I can hardly describe.

I'm so sad to look at her even when she's smiling, those wrinkles are getting more obvious.

She has taken care of us so patiently and lovingly.

Our lives suck without her, seriously.

I just wish that I can do something for her,

Anything.

I don't know what to say but just,

Damn, I love my mom so much.

I just want us to be free from this suffering.

All I want is freedom.

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What I want.

I don't wanna be a princess with you being a knight.

If you want me to be a princess, then you're my prince.

I don't want you to walk behind.me,

I want you to walk beside me.

I don't want you to lift me up,

I just want you to hold my hand and walk with me.

For the rest of my life.

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13 October 2013

Finally the special day has come!
Today is our 2nd Anniversary and everything is just, perfect. :)
Can't believe it has been two years.
Still can remember your nervous and shy face when you were gonna propose to me.
Haha :))
Memories are still fresh in ma head baby.
Including your sweaty warm hand when you first held me,
Your warmth and smell when you first hugged me,
The taste of your lips when you first kissed me,
Your little actions to keep me safe and secure,
And every single moment we have since we met each other.
We've been through fights, tears and all the obstacles.
We grow up day by day,
Learning to tolerate each other
And accept each other.
I just wanna say,
No matter how hard things gonna be,
No matter how tough love's gonna be,
We will make it.
Not because we are strong,
Is just because we have each other.
We don't care about how much tears we had,
How much fights we had,
And how much troubles we got in.
We'll never give up on loving each other.
It's a special day,
Even though we can't celebrate it like other people do,
But, both of us know that we cherish each other.
As long as we be together,
Everyday is another special day for us.
Happy Anniversary, Hubby. :)
Enjoy the song I composed for The special You.
That's what I wanna promise and say to you.
I love you, now and forever. ♡

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